As I look forward to the end of year 2009 and year-end holidays, I sigh in relief that another fruitful year has gone by. But, as I dwell on my plans for the remaining holidays, I find myself worrying about my form 5 life in the following year and how my thoughts will be consumed by my approaching SPM examinations.
Immediately I feel a flow of empathy coursing through me. My mind goes forward to 2010 when I imagine myself sitting for the dreaded SPM. Even now I can clearly imagine how I would rush for activities here and there because my mind is so preoccupied with what I need to do to complete the punishing daily revision schedule I have set out for myself.
My imagination just simply can't stop. In the days leading up to exam, I'm always rushing for time and my mind was constantly in turmoil. My biggest dilemma is wondering if I would be able to complete my revision in time.
The list goes on and on. What happened on me that made me such a worrying timid about future? For the first time in my life, I could no longer be in control of my everyday life. No matter how hard I thought about it, there was still no answer. Life is like a living hell indeed until I manage to pull my soul out from the complicated imagination.........
I start asking why again. And I finally got the answer. It was a short term displeasure in myself ever since I was told to become a choir conductor next year. The heavy duty and responsibility are the main worries as I look forward to focus more in my study. Nonetheless I do enjoy the special attention of being the individual facing obstacles and challenges in life. This is also because I have a lot of moral support- best friend, dear friends, family and my favourite food.
After all, these are just a phase in one's life which will soon pass. One day I believe I will turn the page and there will be no more darkness in life. Thinking of it, since I'm still at that stage in life, why not make the best of it and make it a good chapter.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
许多事，失去了才明白
当我们拿自己的幸福做赌注时，赢回的却是雪雨冰霜，一颗火热的心从此被冷藏起来。也许正如别人说，寂寞使两个人走到一起，当其中一个不再寂寞时，另一个变成了累赘。沉浸在幻灭的世事里，打击与措手不及，让人领悟与成长；可能够潇洒面对友谊创伤的，又有多少人呢？
人的感情就像拼图，有许许多多的人和事拼凑起来，那些得到的，扩大了拼图的范围；而那些失去的，就让拼图有个缺。一段深厚的情谊并不容易积累，当缺失的一角没有办法获得填补时，人又怎能不憔悴呢？
上天慷慨地赐予了这俩有如亲兄妹很多，其中包括一些不可思议的回忆和点点滴滴。如果叫一方以泛红的眼目把它送远去，或许是最痛的神色；揪疼的心情无法自制，任铁石心肠也融化。留不住的，是那友谊的花朵；留下的，又是什么呢？
人的感情就像拼图，有许许多多的人和事拼凑起来，那些得到的，扩大了拼图的范围；而那些失去的，就让拼图有个缺。一段深厚的情谊并不容易积累，当缺失的一角没有办法获得填补时，人又怎能不憔悴呢？
上天慷慨地赐予了这俩有如亲兄妹很多，其中包括一些不可思议的回忆和点点滴滴。如果叫一方以泛红的眼目把它送远去，或许是最痛的神色；揪疼的心情无法自制，任铁石心肠也融化。留不住的，是那友谊的花朵；留下的，又是什么呢？
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